Is this what it feels like to sleepwalk through a whole life Been going through the motions Like I've got nothing better to do *But you should* Maybe I should work on improving myself for once See if something sticks for more than a month Does anyone believe I can see things through I have a never-ending list of unfinished to-dos I could finally try out some portion control Do things that require my self-control Work on more than my mental health Can I push through my desire to give up on myself Saying I'm sad would understate it But depression would be a hyperbole I don't want to exaggerate this rut that I'm in But it's a parasite infecting me It's a parasite infecting me I've been stuck in a fog, in a funk, in a haze Will I ever make it out of this pointless maze I just need some direction to turn me around Can't remember the last time my feet felt the ground Saying I'm sad would understate it But depression would be a hyperbole I don't want to exaggerate this rut that I'm in But it's a parasite infecting me It's a parasite infecting me I've been sidelined by my hesitancy I've been drowning in my apathy Don't want to lose my twenties to stagnancy Don't want to lose all my friendships to complacency Please wake up Please wake up Has my whole life been a nightmare *No, it's been a blank stare* Please wake up

Don't break my stare Cause I can't see where your Where your head's at Behind all that hair That's where you bury it when it's not in your hands Cause if it can't see you It can't hurt you And it can't touch you It can't feel you Like you can't feel it Like you can't trust it Like you don't know it Like you don't know me Cause I'm so serious The time we spent between just us Is not worth losing over your mistrust I can't hear you I can hear you whimper Just above a whisper No please speak up I can hear your quivers Just above your shivers And I can't hear your lying Above all your crying Above all your sighing Don't break my stare Cause I can't see where your Where your head's at Behind all that hair That's where you bury it when it's not in your hands And it might hurt me But I'm not scared of that right now I'll be tough enough to hear you out And if we face the facts to realize we cannot be happy Then I will do what's best for you But I don't know what that is Cause you won't say what you're thinking So I'm left guessing and wondering But guessing was never my strong suit Communication the same for you So we'll silently face the end of me and you Don't break my stare Cause I can't see where your Where your head's at Behind all that hair That's where you bury it when it's not in your hands Now I hope your head's raised up And you hold yourself up high If you're doing well, that just might help me sleep better at night And I don't miss you But I hope you've figured yourself out Like I never could I don't miss that too, just like you now

My head is spinning bad from the vertigo I can't stand back up to vertical I'm stuck in the eternal horizontal With frantic revolutions in my orbitals My head is ringing bad like a dinner bell My mind is spinning round like a carousel Throw my barren body in a wishing well Where I can learn to drown out this endless hell I'm sorry, I'm so sorry but I've never been this trapped in my own head I'm sorry, I'm so sorry but I've never wallowed in this much dread I'm sorry, I'm so sorry but I'm dizzy and I'm not on the comedown I'm sorry, I'm so sorry but I can't tell which way is up from down I'll learn to lay down and to let it pass Cause I can't stand up inside this mess Can you tell me what I did to ever deserve this Why can't I get out of this I'm sorry, I'm so sorry but I've never been this trapped in my own head I'm sorry, I'm so sorry but I've never wallowed in this much dread I'm sorry, I'm so sorry but I'm dizzy and I'm not on the comedown I'm sorry, I'm so sorry but I can't tell which way is up from down And I can never forget the things you did to me But this headache is just my own misery I'm sorry, I'm so sorry but I'm dizzy and I'm not on the comedown I'm sorry, I'm so sorry but I can't tell which way is up from down I'm sorry, I'm so sorry but I've never been quite this close to dead I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry...sorry

I fucked it up again Trapped under my skin I just can't seem to win No, this life won't let me win But I know I really wanna get better And I'll say I really wanna get better And I'll claim I really wanna get better But not right now And I lost myself again Trapped under my skin I just can't see the end There's something in here with me Lost myself again Trapped under my skin Just can't see the end Cause it's blocking out my vision And I know I really wanna get better And I'll say I really wanna get better And I claim I really wanna get better So why not now